This memorial website has been created as a tribute to our beautiful son, Noah Joseph Allison, Noah was born April 7, 2002, he was such a beautiful baby with dark hair, looked so perfect however he was born with hypoplastic left heart syndrome. A very rare but severe heart defect. We knew about a month before he was born that he had this condition. Of course your given several options as to the type of care you want him to receive and the rout you want to go. We chose what we felt was best and that would be to allow the doctor's to perform open heart surgery within a few days after he was born, we were with him as much as we could possibly be and still tyr and keep as much normalcy as possible to our other two children. We knew what a difficult surgery this would be but left everything in the Lord's hands. I remember seeing him after his surgery with all he had attached to him and couldn't help but wonder how much this little guy could endure. He looked so peaceful. I wanted so badly to pick him up and just hold him so he knew mommy was there but was unable to do that with the nature of his surgery. The following days would be critical to his health, these kids are so very fragile, it was a roller coaster ride of highs and lows at one time he would be doing so well, and at other times he would be having trouble, we thought as well as he had seemed to be doing he was on his way to recovery, I remember the day something went wrong. I had just walked away to get a drink and that quickly I remeber going to be let back in to the unit and they said I couldn't go in right now that I needed to really be praying, I remember at that instance I wanted to melt to the ground, this couldn't be happening and yet I was told nothing as to what was happening, the un-know is the hardest to swallow, I remember waiting for his doctor to come out which seemed like an eternity, he did come out and said that they had stabalized him, he had went into cardiac arrest, however the had to put him on ECMO which is a very difficult thing for an adult once they are on it to get off of it, so you can imagine the difficulty in someone so little normally let alone a little guy with a heart condition such as his. All we could do know was wait and see if his heart could repair itself. The next few days seem like a blur I wanted so badly to see him make a full recovery and his heart to heal and be able to function on it's own. I also knew that this was going to be a terrific feat. Days went by and the doctor seen no improvement so he decided it was time to take him off of the ECMO unit and see if he could keep his blood pressure up on his own so as my heart broke that's what we did and our little guy wasn't strong enough to do it on his own. I remember holding him for the first time and knowing that this would also be the last time I would hold him in this lifetime. I didn't want to let him go. I remember him looking up at us before he took his last breath. I felt so helpless there was nothing I could do for my son I wanted so badly to be able to make things all better but knew it was out of my control! So after a couragous fight  he went to heaven to be an angel on April, 19 2004, and wait for us there. I will never understand all the why's and could have beens and it's probably just as well. Someday I will understand it completely when I see him in heaven what an amazing day that will be! Praise be to God!! I am so thankful for the opportunity to have my precious little buddy I only wish he was here with us now! Then I think how selfish that is of me because he is far better off than all of us to be in the presence of our Lord. A perfect heart he has now no aches and pains, no tears, I can only imagine. He is there with our loved ones who I'm sure are enjoying him immensley. I am so thankful for the peace God gives me on a daily basis that his will is perfect. He makes no mistakes and in the grand scheme of things he has a purpose for our loss. There's days that are hard and there will be but we shall meet again! Until then my sweet love mommy loves you more than you can imagine! He was such a sweet little guy, a true fighter. We miss him dearly there is not a day that goes by that we don't think of him. Our son, Zachary, talks so much of his little brother that is in heaven, he was only two when Noah passed away so it's amazing that he is so intrigued but I remember him asking me if he went to heaver and got his heart fixed why can't he come home now with us! He always says if Noah was here I'd be the big brother. Just the things he comes up with! Bless his heart! We all love him so very much!  






~My Mother Is A Survivor~

My mother is a survivor, or so I've heard it said.
But I can hear her crying at night while others are in bed.
I watch her lay awake at night and go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her to help her understand.

But like the sand on the beach that never washed away...
I watch over my surviving mom, who thinks about me everyday.
She wears a smile for others... A smile of disguise!
But through Heaven's door I see the tears flowing from her eyes.

My mom tries to cope with death to keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her, knows it is her way to survive.
As I watch over my surviving mom through Heaven's open door...
I try to tell her that angels protect me forevermore.

I know that doesn't help her... or ease the burden that she bears.
So if you get the chance, go visit her... and show her that you care.
For no matter what she says...No matter what she feels.
My mommy has a broken heart that time won't ever heal.